I just received an email, informing me that I should submit a progress report about my dissertation. It is one of the most dreaded news in my life! I told my friend, “What is there to write in this progress report when there’s nothing progressing?” Hmmm…Looks like this is another kick on my butt. I have no choice but to really start reading and writing now! OMG!
The title says it all! I just completed my data collection from 22 participants. The data collection took 1 month and 1 week. I was a week late on schedule because (*admitting it aloud*) I HAVE BEEN A LAZY PIKU! (which means butt or the coarse A-word, if you prefer 😛 ) Hahaha…It was quite a relief because I am no stalker so, when I had to “follow” 22 of my Facebook friends over a period of a month, it was really NOT EASY! Nonetheless, I am quite happy that I have completed this task!
The end of this task leads to the beginning of another. I HAVE TO START WRITING (or typing) MY THESIS!!! Hmmm…… I hope that I can do as much as possible, at least reaching my 3 pages per day target so that I can complete it by April. I really don’t want to waste money for another semester because it is so unnecessary!!
And finally, I can change my time zone back to the Bulgaria time zone (+2:00)and not following the Malaysian time zone (+8:00). The past one month I have to do calculations on my brain just to get the correct time in the place where I am not. Hahaha…
YAY! YAY! YAY!!!!!!
I actually thought I would be more motivated to work on my stuff in this new year. On the contrary, I am actually still quite demotivated and lazy! Excuses, excuses, excuses! Sometimes I really hate myself for not working out the things which I planned. I also realised that I used up more time in planning things than actually doing them. I really despise myself for this.
Let me update you what actually happened for the past few days. Instead of working diligently on my thesis, I am actually hooked on The Sims 3. I spent much of my time trying to get my Sims resurrected from death so I was working so hard in achieving their cooking, gardening and fishing skills. It was a happy and sad ending for my Sims though. One was resurrected but another was unable to be restored for the second time. So much for the Ambrosia, the Life Fruit and the Deathfish business!
Not saying that I totally forgot my thesis, I actually reordered some reading materials which I thought would be helpful in my writing. And I also completed one part of my data collection. I am left with another part (about 8% to completion) and I really hope I can complete it by today. However, completing the data collection will not help unless I start writing. In fact, I was quite impressed with the 10% I completed from the whole thing. More than 10 % I think. I need 100 pages (the target) and I think I have about 15-20 pages! Go, go, go!! Seriously want to finish it by this year!! Wish me luck 🙂
I guess writing my dissertation isn’t really so bad afterall (although I must admit that yesterday I didn’t complete the target I set for myself). I set a goal of completing 3 pages per day but I did only 1.5 pages and then I started having headache. I am sure it wasn’t an imaginary headache 😛 eventhough I am pretty sure what was the cause of it.
I mean, generally I enjoy writing but ideas don’t really seem to flow to me as much as I’d like them to. Maybe I was just shutting down my mind (I don’t know!) or maybe I was just trying to escape. Either way, it is NOT GOOD!
I think it is always very difficult to START doing something. Because you are just gonna give yourself tonnes of reasons of not doing it. Maybe not reasons, but I know even the slightest thing can easily divert the attention. I think I just have to DO it and of course, FOCUS!
Well, I have just completed my first 3 pages (therefore now taking a break). It’s not some “big” achievement (I know I know) BUT at least I am DOING it! Hooray!! I am gonna continue with the other 3 that I am supposed to do it for today. I hope sooner, I will just get a hang of it and start writing like other professional research writers do 😛
To qoute my first sentence in this blog “I guess writing my dissertation isn’t really so bad afterall”, indeed it isn’t! It’s not like I am having so much fun but I pretty much enjoy it in a way. I hope I would enjoy it all the way to the end!
To those who are also in the same shoe as me, let’s kambate (work hard in Japanese) together!